Life After Narcissistic Abuse: Living with CPTSD P/2

 If you’ve been wondering why healing feels like a rollercoaster, why your body stays on high alert long after the abuse ends, or why everyday moments can trigger intense emotional reactions, this episode is for you.

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In this Part 2 episode of Fake Love and Flying Monkeys, we take a look at what Complex PTSD (CPTSD) really feels like after surviving narcissistic abuse.

I break down CPTSD in plain language, share relatable examples, and offer gentle guidance on how to start reclaiming your peace and safety.

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Whether you’ve listened to Part 1 or this is your first time here, you’ll find validation, hope, and practical insights for navigating life after narcissistic abuse. Healing isn’t linear, but it is possible — and you don’t have to do it alone. 

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Living with CPTSD After Narcissistic Abuse: What It Really Feels Like (Part 2)

Hey there! Welcome back to part two of our deep dive into CPTSD after emotional abuse, especially that sneaky, soul-crushing kind of narcissistic abuse. If you haven’t caught part one yet, where we unpacked those seven emotional triggers that can hit you out of nowhere, no stress. I’ll drop a quick recap soon — but if you’re new here, you might wanna go back and listen to part one first because it lays down some solid groundwork for what we’re getting into today.

Now, for everyone sticking around, grab your tea or coffee, get comfy, because we’re diving into what living with complex PTSD symptoms actually feels like day to day, after surviving narcissistic abuse. Not just the clinical stuff, but the whole messy, exhausting experience that nobody warns you about.

What Even Is CPTSD Anyway?

Okay, let’s not get all textbook-y here, but we do need to break it down. You’ve probably heard of PTSD — post-traumatic stress disorder — right? That’s usually about one big traumatic event, like a car crash or something sudden and intense.

CPTSD, or complex PTSD, is a bit different. It happens after trauma that drags on and on — months or even years of emotional abuse, gaslighting, manipulation… basically all the nasty tricks narcissists specialize in.

Think of PTSD as one massive punch to the gut. CPTSD? It’s more like a slow, relentless drip, drip, drip that wears you down over time. Like a leaky tap you didn’t even notice until it drove you absolutely nuts.

Why Does Narcissistic Abuse Lead to CPTSD?

The thing about narcissistic abuse is it’s rarely wild screaming matches or obvious physical violence (though sometimes it can be). Usually, it’s quieter, sneakier — the dismissive looks, the silent treatments, the backhanded compliments, and that constant gaslighting that makes you question your sanity.

This isn’t just emotional cruelty — it’s relentless, and it rewires your brain and body to live in a state of danger. Your nervous system gets stuck in survival mode, always scanning and waiting for the next hit, even when you’re out of the toxic relationship.

Your body thinks you’re still in danger, even if your brain knows you’re safe.

What Does Living With CPTSD Feel Like?

If you’re like many of the beautiful clients I work with in narcissistic abuse recovery, you’re probably nodding your head right now thinking, “Yeah, that sounds exactly like me.” But what does this feel like day to day?

Well, imagine this: you jump at the slightest loud noise — your brain screams “Danger!” when really it’s just your cat knocking over a glass.

Or you text a friend, and they reply with a simple “okay.” Suddenly your mind spirals: Are they mad? Did I do something wrong? You’re stuck in this loop for hours.

Sometimes you might just zone out mid-conversation because your brain is overwhelmed. Or feel numb, like you’re watching life through a foggy window, disconnected from yourself, from others, even from things you once loved.

And that little voice in your head? The one that tells you you’re not enough or you’re too much? That’s the complex PTSD symptom of internalized negative self-talk drilled in by the abuse.

You might catch yourself apologizing for things that aren’t your fault: “Sorry I’m a mess,” or “Sorry for being so sensitive.” That’s survival — after years of walking on eggshells, you shrink yourself just to avoid conflict.

But that inner critic? It’s a total bully, just like your abuser. And the first step in healing is recognizing: it’s not you talking, it’s trauma.

Healing Is a Rollercoaster, Not a Straight Line

Healing from CPTSD after narcissistic abuse isn’t neat or linear. Some days you feel confident, hopeful, and clear — then bam! A tiny trigger drops you right back into the thick of it.

It’s like riding a rollercoaster or a merry-go-round you just can’t get off. Sometimes you climb, sometimes you drop, sometimes you’re frozen hanging on for dear life.

So, be kind to yourself on the down days. It doesn’t mean you’re failing. It means you’re human.

More Common Triggers in CPTSD Recovery

If you heard part one, you know about the big emotional triggers that can slam you unexpectedly. Here are a couple more to watch for:

• Imagine you’re in a work meeting. Someone raises their voice — not yelling, just firm. But your heart races, palms sweat, and your brain screams, “Am I about to get fired?” Meanwhile, no one else notices.
• Or you’re scrolling social media, and you see a post that reminds you of your ex — maybe it’s just a phrase they used. Suddenly your mood crashes, hit with waves of sadness or anger that feel way over the top.

These are classic CPTSD emotional triggers, because your nervous system thinks it’s back in the abuse zone — even though you’re safe now.

What’s Happening Inside Your Brain & Body?

Here’s the science behind all this:

Your nervous system’s been on high alert for so long it doesn’t know how to chill out. The part of your brain that processes safety (the prefrontal cortex) gets overwhelmed.

Meanwhile, the amygdala — the survival part of your brain — gets stuck in overdrive.

That means you stay locked in fight, flight, or freeze mode way longer than you need to.

Your body holds onto tension, giving you tight muscles, headaches, digestive issues, insomnia, even teeth grinding — all common in CPTSD after emotional abuse.

And all this happens even when the danger is long gone.

So, How Do You Start Healing From CPTSD?

Great question! And no, it’s not quick or easy — but it’s definitely possible.

Here’s some beginner steps for your narcissistic abuse recovery journey:

1. Listen to your body. Don’t push through the discomfort or shame. Notice what your body’s telling you — maybe tension in your shoulders, or anxiety in crowds.
2. Practice grounding techniques. Deep breathing, feeling your feet on the floor, or holding onto something solid can remind your brain, “Hey, we’re okay now.”
3. Set boundaries. This can be scary if you’re used to always giving in, but boundaries are self-care, not selfish. Start small, and remember it’s okay to say no.
4. Find safe people to talk to. Whether that’s a trauma-informed counselor, a support group, or a trusted friend who gets it — healing is easier when you’re not alone.

Your Nervous System Wants to Heal

Even though your brain acts like a drama queen over a burnt toast or a slow text reply, remember: it’s just trying to protect you.

That hypervigilance kept you safe during the abuse, but now it’s stuck in overdrive.

Next time you’re panicking over a text that just says “okay,” try having a little laugh or smile. That’s your brain being the overprotective buddy it is.

You Are Not Broken — You Are a Survivor

If you’re sitting there thinking, “Wow, that’s me. That’s my life,” know this:

You are not alone.

You are not broken.

You are a survivor.

Every step you take — even the ones that feel like stumbles — is a step toward reclaiming your peace.

Healing from complex PTSD after narcissistic abuse isn’t about erasing the past. It’s about learning to live fully in the present, with all your battle scars as proof of just how strong you really are.

Ready to Take the Next Step?

If you’re struggling with CPTSD after emotional abuse or feeling stuck in your narcissistic abuse recovery, remember you don’t have to do this alone.

Head over to Brighter Outlook Counselling to explore support options tailored for survivors like you. Whether it’s trauma-informed counseling, community groups, or practical healing tools, help is here.

You deserve to heal, feel safe, and live your best life.